Thanks

I am so thankful for all the Lord is doing in my life. I am truly excited for what he has in store for me, and cant wait for the whole story to unfold. He has blessed me with wonderful community, wonderful friends, and an overall confidence in Him that I haven't had before. For the first time in a while, I am satisfied.

In other news, I have decided that once I turn 18 I want to get  a chest tattoo dedicated to the Lord and all he has done for me. I had my friend draw me up what I want. (Its not entirely finished.) In the banner it will say "In the face of my God I collapse". Ill post the finished product when I get it.

Thank you God for everything you do. You're a wonderful God.

The Roar and the Whisper

I know the times are changing, I feel it in the earth, beneath a sea of fire burns. Look in my eyes and tell me, hopes lost and death has won. When angels rise and blot the sun. Oh while we sleep and slumber, wolves daydream of destruction, I've grown so weak, I cannot stand on my own. This world will drag you down. My heart is wounded so deeply, its getting harder to breathe. Within the breath of a whisper, you kill the pain that's in me. And I've waited so long, deceptions left me so weakened. I tried to fight it alone. Within your arms is a fury. A father saves his Son. Oh God, come over us, save us, save us with the roar and the whisper. Come over us, oh God, we need you now.


"The Roar and the Whisper"


-I Am Alpha and Omega-

Blessing

For too long I have been searching for someone who will lead and guide me, and be my mentor. I prayed and prayed for God to put that someone into my life, and for the longest time, it seemed that my prayers went unheard. I began to become discouraged, and felt as though this person would never come.

About 3 months ago, I met a man whom immediately felt fit the bill. At the time, I did not know him enough to ask for discipleship, so I waited. We soon became good friends, and I quickly began to confide in him with my problems, which is something I had long been missing.

A mere 2 days ago, I finally decided it was time to ask him if he would disciple me. I had been struggling with many issues , and so we met up to talk, and I asked him. His response was better than I had planned for. He said...

"That's been the plan"

Thank you God, for this blessing that you yourself have set up well before I was able to do it myself.

Prayer for the day

Dear Lord,
I know that I am not who I should be, and I know that the only way to fix this is to look to you, and become completely yours. But this is not an easy change, and it is so unbelievably hard for me to do, so I ask you once more to open my eyes in such a way that I can see your grace and love, and instead of fleeing to the things of the material world, turn and run into your awaiting arms. You are what I need, and I want to be able to see that more often. Allow me to have clarity and trust in you Lord.

You are my God, And I am your child.

Rebuild.

This post is solely to help me vent and reflect on my issues, so for the few reading this, bear with me.

As a 16 year old, I don't expect my life to be simple, but too often I find myself struggling to cope. Don't get me wrong, I can deal with things pretty well, but recently, I have just been feeling like everything has been creeping up on me. In these situations, I know I'm supposed to look to the Lord, but once again, it seems that too often I struggle to find Him. I seem to forget to pray, and read the word, and seek guidance, and simply look to the world to heal my wounds. Time and time again, the world has failed me, and for some reason, my idiotic self doesn't realize that. Recently, my issues have consisted of my parents and my attempts to please them, my struggles to fit in in a non-Christian world, and my attempts to live the life God wants me to live.

All I want is to eliminate these issues. And only God can help me do that.